All Apologies

These days I don´t feel very good with myself, I have faced the worst side of myself.Now I have changed my opinion about myself and I was able to see the way in which other people see me and think about me. This happened due to an awful attitude I had towards someone I love so much and I don´t want to hurt(I won´t go further in details because it is useless).I have realized that I have a big problem concerning the way I say things; I don´t realize that sometimes I´m very rude when saying something to someone and I don´t see the consecuences that this could bring. The problem is that I´m a very impulsive person, I don´t realize what I have just say, I don´t think what I have to say and in this way I hurt people.It is not my intention to hurt you, believe me. I have had the same problem all my life, and now I´m willing to change the way I am. I recognise that I´m selfish, egotist and proud. I have always been misundertood by my silly jokes and the way I say things.There are times it seems to me that I don´t know how to deal with people; there are times that I could be very heavy and irritating.I want to tell you that it wasn´t my intention to hurt anyone with my words or attitude. I recognise that sometimes I am very silly and I don´t know how to behave myself, so I beg you perdon. It has never been my intention to hurt someone, and I´m going to change: I will try to be a better person, because I´m not a very good one.Sorry if sometimes I have made you feel bad, this goes for all the people I love dearly, you know who you are. This is the way I feel today, please forgive me.

sports...

I´m not a sporting man you know, I know that you know.I´m overweight, though some people don´t think so.I consider myself not to have physical ability: when I was a child I couldn´t even climb a tree, and all my friends were so flexible and athletic that made me feel bad in some way. I never had the power of "controlling" my body to do any sports or gymnastics. When I as a child I was really skinny and pale and I wasn´t very strong; some classmates of mine used to beat me because I didn´t know how to defend myself. I have always had this problem concerning sports, and this is a serious matter when you are a child, because children are competitive and they like to show their strength.I remember when I had to do gymnastic at primary and secondary school: I used to sit in a corner doing nothing, because the teacher used to make us play football and I was so bad playing it that I prefered to be apart.However, there was one sport that I always like: basketball. When we have to play basketball at secondary school I joined my classmates to play, because I liked it very much though I wasn´t very good at it. I was very good at shooting and scoring from a great distance, so my game was not very physical. But I think that the worst thing concerning my relationship with sports happened when I was in my first year at secondary school. I used to go to a technical school, and at that time we shared the school building with another secondary school,which the vast mayority of students who attended it were girls.We used to have the gymnastics classes in the basketball court, and all the girls used to watch our classes, sitting around the court.These girls were very mean, because each time we did something bad they used to laught at us and this was very embarrasing.One day, the exercise consisted in rolling over a kind of large box, that was placed very high.So, in order to do it, we had to jump and to roll over it, without losing our equilibrium.It was very difficult to do because the area in which we had to roll over was very narrow,and there was this fear of falling from it and breaking your neck or something.Ok,the vast majority of my classmates could do the exercise very well, but it was my turn.I was so afraid of hurting myself and so embarrased that I was extremely nervous.I tried to jump and to roll but it was impossible for me; the whole situation was so ridiculous that all the girls and my classmates laughed at me.Fortunately, my teacher realized that I wasn´t so skilful and he helped me to do it.After severals tries, I managed to do it but with so much effort and insecurity that everyone began to clap.I have to say that I don´t really like sports because of my lack of physical ability.I would have liked to be good at basketball, but unfortunaly I´m not.However, I think that I had other abilities that some of my classmates didn´t had at that time.That´s makes me feel better.

The Killers-Read My Mind

This song is dedicated to my girlfriend: happy "month-versary"!!! I love you so much, kisses and hugs. P.D.: try to read the lyrics of the song: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/killers/readmymind.html

Law & order

So much reading and studying ethics and The Lord of The Flies made me reflect on many things concerning our human nature. First of all, I have to say that I´m hooked with LOTF. Last night I was reading it and I realized that it is an excellent book; it makes you think about a lot of things. I´m really amazed how some people can write such complex and superb stories. This book is pretty "heavy" in a way, it´s like a punch in your face. It´s not so pleasant to read how these children change throughout the story to become these savages unable to reason and dominated by violence and the desire of blood. I think that the main topic of the book is about the dichotomy between law and individual freedom; to obey your basic instints or to respect the rules of your community. I think that the object of this book is to make you realize that it is impossible to think about the existence of a society without rules. I have to say that I´m very nihilistic at times, I consider myself to be an skeptic. I sometimes think that it would be better for us to do not have a government to rule our lives: now I have changed my mind. After reading this and reflecting I lot I think that it would be impossible. Maybe I tend to think in that way because I always see people complaining about the government. There are times that I think that they don´t represent us at all and they are in power just for seeking personal interests. However, a lack of laws can lead to a anachy that it´s not the solution to our problems. Not having laws and someone to control society in a way can lead to chaos and disaster. In my opinion, the only way to try to solve our problems as society is to be responsible for our acts as citizens and to obey and respect the law. What I would like to see is that people who are in the government do the thinghs they are supposed to do and be honest. We are in the 21st century and it is unbelievable that we haven´t learned how to correct our mistakes. It´s hard to believe that nowadays corruption still exists. I have something to say apart from what I have written:I want to congratulate our teachers because in a way the topics we are dealing with in class are similar between the subjects, and this gives us the possibility to discuss and to know deeply about these themes.

Sense of humour

Do you consider yourself to have a good sense of humour?I do.I have always had a good sense of humour.I think that it´s a kind of defence against all the difficulties,hardships and pressures of life.Sometimes we are so concerned about the things we have to do and our responsabilities that we tend to forget about laughing. I know that there are times when everything is wrong, or something bad has happened to us. It´s difficult to laugh in these moments, but sometimes we have to percieve the absurd part of life and laught at it. In my case, I use humour to release nervous tension; it makes me feel good, but there were times when I had problems with people because of my jokes. I almost received a good punch in my face because I had the brilliant idea of impersonating a bully classmate of mine at secondary school. I have to recognize that sometimes I don´t have a limit concerning jokes, but it´s not my intention to hurt people. I tend to think that they have a good sense of humour and they won´t be offended because of my jokes.I have to admit that I feel very good when people laugh at my silly jokes, but I don´t consider myself to be funny. There are friends of mine that don´t think I´m funny and it happens the other way round; I am the victim of their jokes. There are several comedians I admire. I have always like absurd humour like the kind of Todo por 2 pesos and Diego Capusotto, but there are many others which I admire. I really like Roberto Petinatto monologues, Jorge Ginsburg´s intelligent interviews, the naive humour of Mr Bean, Alberto Olmedo and Les Luthiers, some tv programmes like Alejo y Valentina, CQC and Duro de Domar. I even had the chance to meet Carlitos Bala in Mar del Plata. It was several years ago, we were dinning with my sister at a restaurant when he appeared. Everybody turned their heads and started clapping their hands when their realized of his presence. I asked him for an autograph and he was very kind to me, always making jokes and laughing. I really admire people who have sense of humour and don´t take themselves so seriously. I think that having good humour shows intelligence, and it´s a way to the face life and problems.

Radiohead-No Surprises

My own review

As some people know, I´m a big fan of the english alternative music band Radiohead. I´m looking forward to listening to their new record, which hopefully is going to be release this year. I strongly recommend you to listen to this band, even though I think know one very popular song(Creep). I also recommend to listen to this record: O.K. Computer.These days we were dealing with the topic of technology and its impact in the modern society; this brought to my mind this album, which deals with the human being and the frantic technological advances. The record opens with Airbag, a disonant rock song with an hiperkinetic electronic beat.Radiohead´s singer Thom Yorke sings about interstellar burst and the next world war,and all this prose is accompanied by a music that seems to be the soundtrack of the apocalypse.Four beeps take us to the next song, Paranoid Android. This piece is a sound collage, that reminds me of "Bohemian Raphsody" by Queen because of its change of moods and sound and because of its lenght(7 min.)This song serves as an introduction to the main theme of the album(technology and alienation)Although the album was released in 1997, the themes and motives in the lyrics of the song are a current topic.The refences to the yuppie culture, panic attacks and political corruption are a exact picture of our modern society.The next song is called Subterranean Homesick Alien, and the title is a clear allusion to Bob Dylan´s song Subterranean Homesick Blues. Each time I listen to this song I feel like I´m floating, maybe because of the sci-fiction guitar sound throughout the track. The lyrics are strange: it´s a metaphor of feeling lonely and disconnected in your own world.Exit Music(For A Film) gives us a break, at least with its sound.It´s a quiet ballad, rather minimalistic which goes in-crescendo and burst into an explotion of desperation and sadnees.The lyrics of the song were inspired by William Shakespeare´s Romeo and Juliet. The next song is my favourite: Let Down. It´s a beatiful track, full of sweet guitars and an outstanding end with the sound of a computer machine(one of the most beautiful sound effects I have ever heard).The lyrics are about being lost and depressed, alone in a world that is frightening and threatening.Karma Police begins with its classic piano intro, and it´s maybe one of the most criptic Radiohead lyrics of all. The track ends with a high chirr similar to a detuned radio(or something like that).Fitter Happier is the next song;it´s an ironic poem about human condition and it´s told by the voice of a machine(similar to Steven Hawking´s virtual voice)Electioneering begins with heavy rock guitar and a crazy rhythm.It is the most conventional song of the whole album.Climbing up the walls is the most frightning and weird song in the album;It sounds like an awful nightmare, and Thom´s voice is altered by an outstanding sound effect. The next song probably sums up the message the band wanted to send to the world;No Surprises is a lullaby, a very sweet and mellow tune which makes you feel sleepy,but the lyrics are not so beautiful. They speak about the demanding modern life in the first world country cities, the meaningless of life and the lack of human communication that technology can bring. The next track, Lucky, is a spine-chilling song with harsh guitars and an excelent solo at the end.The record finishes with The Tourist, a metaphor of the post-modern man and his attitude towards life. As you see, Radiohead critizes this technological advances and the way they can transform life and alienate human beings. However, they make this critic using technology and excelent production in the music. I think Radiohead have created one of the best albums in the rock history. I think you should listen to it.

Radiohead´s O.K. Computer lyrics: http://www.purelyrics.com/index.php?album_detail=463

Even better than the real thing

Recently I was thinking a lot about the impact of technology in society. Last week Charly gave us an article about multitasking, which is related to the use(or abuse) of technology. I was astonished when reading the article and see that there are cases that technology seems to be so powerful that can destroy family life. Children and teenagers are so absorved by gadgets that they could spend all day using either a computer, or sending messages with their cell phones.This is something to be aware of because this abuse of technology tends to isolated them and they are not able to socialize.If we go further, if we analize deeply this issue,ther are several things to take into account.I think that one of the reasons why technological devices catch our attention is because they can become a task that used to be difficult or boring it into something easier.Moreover, all the things you need for doing your work or entertaining yourself are packed all in one in a computer. Nowadays there is no need to have an audio equipment or a DVD player if you have a computer: you have them already there.Another thing is that Internet and chatting are part of a virtual world. In my opinion the main reason why people are hooked with Internet is because it is an escape from reality. It is easier to keep a relationship or socialize through the Internet, because you can fake your identity. You can be someone else and not being reaponsible for you actions.The net offers you complete freedom of action, and there aren´t any risks: if things get difficult or unpleasant with someone you just log out and that´s it. But not only the internet manipulated reality in anyway we want to, it´s what a computer or technological devices offer you. For example, there are these computer programs like Photoshop which are a good tool for producing artistic photos and so on, but it also helps you to modify reality in a way: this program is used in journalism. With this program they can modify the physical appearence of a famous person and make him or her "perfect". Everything in these technological world seems to be virtual, fake,unreal. I think that this the world which I have to live in, and I have to get accustomed to that.

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There is a light that always shines so bright
It has always been there,but sometimes I cannot see it
there is always someone by your side
someone very special,do you realize?
I need something to believe in
and now I believe in miracles
yesterday I was alone, and now you are with me
a long time ago I was lost
now I have found the way
there were times that I couldnt recognize myself
but today I found a friend
it is inside of me,it will always be
no matter how hard you try, I will go on
no matter how hard you bring me down
I will make it real
this is just the start,this is something new
I hope it would never end
I hope it would never go
please, never ever leave me alone
now that I found you,stay home

Old town

I live in Tafi Viejo, I have lived there all my life and I have to say that I have a love-hate relationship with it.There are times that I don´t like living here at all, because I feel like I´m disconnected from the city. Doing even the smallest thing(for example if I have to buy guitar strings) I have to travel to San Miguel. Its exahusting to travel to the city everyday; I have to do it because I study there. There are some days that I have to travel twice, because I´m doing my teaching practices in a school of San Miguel.I always tell to my friends that I would really like to live in the city, because everything I need is there.However, there are moments that I really like living here, because it´s very quiet and small. Recently I have begun to miss staying here, because I´m the vast mayority of the time in the city. I have to say that I´m very proud of being a taficeño, because my town was very important several years ago. All my family has always lived here.I live very far from the center, in a neighborhood called Villa Obrera. It was set in the time of the Talleres Ferroviarios, and it´s called like that because the workers who used to work in the Talleres settled there.Each family of my neighborhood had a relative who worked in the Talleres;my grandfather worked there too. Unfortunately, nowadays the talleres are just a cementery: it was closed several years ago and nowadays the only thing that keeps them alive is that the municipality is placed there. It´s rather sad to walk through the railway station and see the old and rusted trains; it´s a desolated picture indeed. In addition, the former Tafi Viejo´s quatermaster and his cronies stole tools and very expensive equipment; we could see trunks taking away them.However, I think that we have to face the truth, trains are outdated and the government would have to invest a lot of money to make them work again. I don´t think that this will happen, but I would be nice to see the Giant working again.I guess this is just a dream.

30 min. brainstorm

Just write,dont think very much. I can see it clear now, I understand so many things now. Ít´s inside of me, I can be the owner of my own life. I can go wherever I want to go, I can do whatever I want to do. It´s up to me.All this time I´ve discovered many things in myself that I didn´t know,nowadays I feel more confident,stronger, focused. I realized that I´m studing what I love, I just realize that I love teaching, and I want to learn everyday, I want to improve myself. I feel open to everything. I think that so much reading and so much listening to music made me a more perceptive person.These last time I feel more sensitive about feelings and thoughts, I´m interested in people, I want to know better the people I love, my family, my girfriend, my friends, my classmates, my teachers.I think that in life you get want you give. In this moment I feel thankful to all these people that I have just mentioned.Thank you for everything, you taught me so many things and made me see things that I would not have seen on my own. Thank you for all your words,your critics,you understanding and patience.Thank you for making me feeling a lucky person, God blees you all.I want to give the best of me, in all aspects of life. I have to defeat my enemy, my negative side. I feel that I can control myself now, but there are times that it´s so hard to keep going, there are times that I feel that it´s all too much.However, I know myself very well and now I know what to do in those moments,and it´s natural, we all feel the same at times.I want to live the moment, I dont want to think about the future because I´m afraid of it, I don´t want to change anything now. I thin´k that now I need more time, I want to go back to do the things that I used to do, without stop doing the things I´m doing now.I apologhize if this entry is not very clear, but that is the point. I wanted to write what I feel at the moment, I want to release all the things the I have in my mind.I hope that I won´t run out ideas, I need to keep writing.

kites and toy cars

There are few special things to tell about my childhood,maybe because it´s was very normal and happy one. This cold weather of autumn brings to my memory a lot of things that I remember about my chilhood.One of them is when I was a little child, and My father and I used to spent our time in a huge field, flying my kite.This field was a vast green camp which was placed very near my house.The ground was so plain and the grass so green that you can easily run through it, without paying much attention if you trip with the stones.There were several days of autumn which the weather was lovely:warm sunny days,very bright sunny days and a breeze caressing your face.These days were made for flying our kite. My dad used to make my kites, he had a skiil to build them.This was something special for me because the mayority of the kids that went there bought their kites, and their were not so good.I remember the joy I felt each time we went to that beautiful field.They were magical afternoons with my dad, as he taught me how to control the kite in spite of the strong wind.Now I remember another special toy that I used to have in those times. As I said, my dad had a special gift to build things such as toys and other stuff.Once he built a car, and it was great.I was made of wood, and the wheels and the steering wheel were part of an old toy car which was broken. When he finished building the car, he even pasted the bodywork with cigarretes brands stickers, as it was a F1 car.However, the car didn´t have propulsion, so in orden to move it you have to push it through a slope to get speed.I remember I was sitting in the car and my friends had to push: it was incredible the speed that car got!!!It was so fast that my friends were astonished.Obviously there were times that I was running so fast that I couldn´t control the car and crushed.I got hurt many times,but it was so funny and exciting that I didn´t care about it.I was so happy when I was a child that I would like to go back to those times.

All the things that I´ve done

The other day I remembered all the hobbies that I used to had. I consider myself to be a curious person;I´m interested in diverse topics and subjects, and I also like to search for information about the things I´m interest in. I think that it´s my nature, it´s just the way I am.I guess that is the reason why I wanted to be a teacher; I want to transmite to other people everything I know about something.I had several obsessions throughout my life; I was always interested in one subject for a while,then when I got bored of that I looked for another thing.The worst part of this was that in general my interest would long only for a short time.I guess that the first thing that I was interested in was in magic.I was a child at that time,and my parents gave me a magician´s set as a birthday present. The set had materials and instructions to do magic tricks:it was organized in different levels of difficulty according to the trick and the ability.I remembered that I used to practice a lot to learn the tricks. Finally after a long time of practising I was able to do a kind of show to my family and my friends at home.After a while I got bored of magic and I was interested in chess. I have to admit that I wasn´t very good at playing it, it turned to be very difficult for me. I used to cut the moves that were published in the newspaper every sunday, and I try to learn them in this way. A friend of mine used to beat me everytime we played, so I realized that I wasn´t so good at it and I quitted.Another thing the I used to do was to collect comics. I had a huge collection of different comics, but after a time I got bored(again).Several others things I tried to do: I wanted to be a ham radio operator,a basketball player,a drawer and other things that I couldn´t achieve due to ability,money or time. I think that the only thing that I have always been interested in is music.I have plans concerning music; I want to record an "album", in a "do it yourself" fashion.I will record it at home, with my computer.I hope to have the time to do it,after all it´s just a plan for the moment.

the mechanical man

A clockwork orange, dr jeckill and mr hyde and lord of the flies,all these novels are related in some way because they deal with EVIL.What is our nature?First of all I have to say that I´m an agnostic,I´m not an atheist as many people think.I have to state this because my opinions are not the same as an atheist, I think in a very different way.I agree with the theory of evolution, I think that we are just animals that have evolved and became this complex and difficult being called human.As animals, there are certain things that are part of our nature that we cannot deal with them.As I said, we are animals that have evolved, that have become so complex in their behaviour that as a result we have created values and rules to control things.This is so because we don´t live alone,we live with other people and we are part of a society.As members of a very intrincate society,we have rules that we have to respect in orden to stay in that society and receive benefits from it.Going back to the topic of evil,are we born evil of evil is part of our nature?I think that the idea of good and evil was created by men;an animal doesn´t know the concept of good and evil,it just behave as its nature tells it to behave.An animal is capable of killing just for the sake of its survival;it is not part of a society that tells it what is wrong or what is right,also it doesn´t have a conscience and doesn´t feel guilty for its acts.I think that the thing where is not only society,but is the man itself.The man is an animal who evolved,and has feelings,deep emotions, reason and is sentient and conscientious.Also,he has a wide range of moral values that should respect in order to be fine.It is this conscience that prevents him from doing bad things or behave in a irrational way.But,why does the man accept this conditions?just because He seeks for happiness and well-being.I know that the things I have written are obvious(I don´t know why I think so)but this was just an attemp to show my thoughts about this subject which is very interesting to me.

why a teacher?

Sometimes I think: how do I get here?I remember that when I was younger I didn´t have a clue of what to do with my life, because the only thing that I liked was music and just music and nothing more than music.Yes, I knew at that time that music is something beautiful but it is really difficult to make money with it.so when I finished secondary school I was thinking what to do,what to study because my mother wanted me to go on studying and to be a professional.I have always have a skill or hability to learn english,it was very easy for me to get the meaning when I listened to a song in english:it was like the words and the sounds of the language sticked in my brain.I have never studied english formally in my life,I only made a course studying english at home.When I entered in the university I hadnt realized yet that I was there to become a techer;at that time I just wanted to study english and that was all,without thinking any further.The university was very difficult for me, I couldn´t get the pace of the carrer so I decided to quit.For a short time I was working for a drugsote;the job was not good so after a time I quitted.After this my mother encouraged me to start studying again and I chose to go to a terciary institution.So here I am,trying to become a teacher of english.Now I realize that I want to be a techer,not only because I love english(not only english,I would like to be a teacher of literature also)but I like teaching,and I think that the world needs more teachers.A techer can affect your life in a very powerful way.We have to be aware that as prostective teachers we have a huge responsability because we are dealing with people.It´s in our hands to try to leave the best of ourselves in them,because they will be the society of the future.I think that one of the greatest things about teaching is that we can be an inspiration for people,we can change a life and make them feel that they are useful and that they can achive all they want.A teacher gives the tools to their students and encourage them to be better,not only better profesionals but better people.If I could only reach someone´s mind and soul,and trying to help him or her to overcome difficulties and to grow as a person,I would be satisfied.