All Apologies

These days I don´t feel very good with myself, I have faced the worst side of myself.Now I have changed my opinion about myself and I was able to see the way in which other people see me and think about me. This happened due to an awful attitude I had towards someone I love so much and I don´t want to hurt(I won´t go further in details because it is useless).I have realized that I have a big problem concerning the way I say things; I don´t realize that sometimes I´m very rude when saying something to someone and I don´t see the consecuences that this could bring. The problem is that I´m a very impulsive person, I don´t realize what I have just say, I don´t think what I have to say and in this way I hurt people.It is not my intention to hurt you, believe me. I have had the same problem all my life, and now I´m willing to change the way I am. I recognise that I´m selfish, egotist and proud. I have always been misundertood by my silly jokes and the way I say things.There are times it seems to me that I don´t know how to deal with people; there are times that I could be very heavy and irritating.I want to tell you that it wasn´t my intention to hurt anyone with my words or attitude. I recognise that sometimes I am very silly and I don´t know how to behave myself, so I beg you perdon. It has never been my intention to hurt someone, and I´m going to change: I will try to be a better person, because I´m not a very good one.Sorry if sometimes I have made you feel bad, this goes for all the people I love dearly, you know who you are. This is the way I feel today, please forgive me.

sports...

I´m not a sporting man you know, I know that you know.I´m overweight, though some people don´t think so.I consider myself not to have physical ability: when I was a child I couldn´t even climb a tree, and all my friends were so flexible and athletic that made me feel bad in some way. I never had the power of "controlling" my body to do any sports or gymnastics. When I as a child I was really skinny and pale and I wasn´t very strong; some classmates of mine used to beat me because I didn´t know how to defend myself. I have always had this problem concerning sports, and this is a serious matter when you are a child, because children are competitive and they like to show their strength.I remember when I had to do gymnastic at primary and secondary school: I used to sit in a corner doing nothing, because the teacher used to make us play football and I was so bad playing it that I prefered to be apart.However, there was one sport that I always like: basketball. When we have to play basketball at secondary school I joined my classmates to play, because I liked it very much though I wasn´t very good at it. I was very good at shooting and scoring from a great distance, so my game was not very physical. But I think that the worst thing concerning my relationship with sports happened when I was in my first year at secondary school. I used to go to a technical school, and at that time we shared the school building with another secondary school,which the vast mayority of students who attended it were girls.We used to have the gymnastics classes in the basketball court, and all the girls used to watch our classes, sitting around the court.These girls were very mean, because each time we did something bad they used to laught at us and this was very embarrasing.One day, the exercise consisted in rolling over a kind of large box, that was placed very high.So, in order to do it, we had to jump and to roll over it, without losing our equilibrium.It was very difficult to do because the area in which we had to roll over was very narrow,and there was this fear of falling from it and breaking your neck or something.Ok,the vast majority of my classmates could do the exercise very well, but it was my turn.I was so afraid of hurting myself and so embarrased that I was extremely nervous.I tried to jump and to roll but it was impossible for me; the whole situation was so ridiculous that all the girls and my classmates laughed at me.Fortunately, my teacher realized that I wasn´t so skilful and he helped me to do it.After severals tries, I managed to do it but with so much effort and insecurity that everyone began to clap.I have to say that I don´t really like sports because of my lack of physical ability.I would have liked to be good at basketball, but unfortunaly I´m not.However, I think that I had other abilities that some of my classmates didn´t had at that time.That´s makes me feel better.

The Killers-Read My Mind

This song is dedicated to my girlfriend: happy "month-versary"!!! I love you so much, kisses and hugs. P.D.: try to read the lyrics of the song: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/killers/readmymind.html

Law & order

So much reading and studying ethics and The Lord of The Flies made me reflect on many things concerning our human nature. First of all, I have to say that I´m hooked with LOTF. Last night I was reading it and I realized that it is an excellent book; it makes you think about a lot of things. I´m really amazed how some people can write such complex and superb stories. This book is pretty "heavy" in a way, it´s like a punch in your face. It´s not so pleasant to read how these children change throughout the story to become these savages unable to reason and dominated by violence and the desire of blood. I think that the main topic of the book is about the dichotomy between law and individual freedom; to obey your basic instints or to respect the rules of your community. I think that the object of this book is to make you realize that it is impossible to think about the existence of a society without rules. I have to say that I´m very nihilistic at times, I consider myself to be an skeptic. I sometimes think that it would be better for us to do not have a government to rule our lives: now I have changed my mind. After reading this and reflecting I lot I think that it would be impossible. Maybe I tend to think in that way because I always see people complaining about the government. There are times that I think that they don´t represent us at all and they are in power just for seeking personal interests. However, a lack of laws can lead to a anachy that it´s not the solution to our problems. Not having laws and someone to control society in a way can lead to chaos and disaster. In my opinion, the only way to try to solve our problems as society is to be responsible for our acts as citizens and to obey and respect the law. What I would like to see is that people who are in the government do the thinghs they are supposed to do and be honest. We are in the 21st century and it is unbelievable that we haven´t learned how to correct our mistakes. It´s hard to believe that nowadays corruption still exists. I have something to say apart from what I have written:I want to congratulate our teachers because in a way the topics we are dealing with in class are similar between the subjects, and this gives us the possibility to discuss and to know deeply about these themes.

Sense of humour

Do you consider yourself to have a good sense of humour?I do.I have always had a good sense of humour.I think that it´s a kind of defence against all the difficulties,hardships and pressures of life.Sometimes we are so concerned about the things we have to do and our responsabilities that we tend to forget about laughing. I know that there are times when everything is wrong, or something bad has happened to us. It´s difficult to laugh in these moments, but sometimes we have to percieve the absurd part of life and laught at it. In my case, I use humour to release nervous tension; it makes me feel good, but there were times when I had problems with people because of my jokes. I almost received a good punch in my face because I had the brilliant idea of impersonating a bully classmate of mine at secondary school. I have to recognize that sometimes I don´t have a limit concerning jokes, but it´s not my intention to hurt people. I tend to think that they have a good sense of humour and they won´t be offended because of my jokes.I have to admit that I feel very good when people laugh at my silly jokes, but I don´t consider myself to be funny. There are friends of mine that don´t think I´m funny and it happens the other way round; I am the victim of their jokes. There are several comedians I admire. I have always like absurd humour like the kind of Todo por 2 pesos and Diego Capusotto, but there are many others which I admire. I really like Roberto Petinatto monologues, Jorge Ginsburg´s intelligent interviews, the naive humour of Mr Bean, Alberto Olmedo and Les Luthiers, some tv programmes like Alejo y Valentina, CQC and Duro de Domar. I even had the chance to meet Carlitos Bala in Mar del Plata. It was several years ago, we were dinning with my sister at a restaurant when he appeared. Everybody turned their heads and started clapping their hands when their realized of his presence. I asked him for an autograph and he was very kind to me, always making jokes and laughing. I really admire people who have sense of humour and don´t take themselves so seriously. I think that having good humour shows intelligence, and it´s a way to the face life and problems.

Radiohead-No Surprises